Sunday, January 20, 2008

Still Tougher than Tina???

I am feeling very emotional right now.

I think it must be the fact that last week I started another second injectable cycle almost immediately after finding out that the last one did not work.

When I saw Dr. Killjoy last Wednesday, he told me that I had three cysts on my ovaries but that they were not enough to stop the cycle. He told me to start the Menopur that night. WTF?

When I tired to get more information from him, like what caused them and how long have I had them, he said--while holding my medical chart in his hand-- “ask Dr. Feelgood the next time you see him, I don’t have any historical knowledge of your ovaries.” And left the room.

Needless to say, I was pissed. I don’t understand why it’s so difficult to get information about my body.

Thankfully, I did see Dr. Feelgood yesterday morning and he told me that the cysts had already disappeared. It turns out that I only have 2 eggs this cycle, so he increased the dosage. I can’t believe that last time around I had 6 eggs and this time I my only have 2 so far.

And the other drama this week surrounds my donor. Apparently, the last (perfect!) donor we chose has retired. As I mentioned before, all of my donors have retired. I don't know if this is a good or bad sign. So we reconsidered our options and went with an open donor. We are both happy with that decision.

I am feeling very anxious about what the next steps will be if this doesn’t work.

But I am trying to remember that I am still tougher than Tina.

5 comments:

Lo said...

Dr. Killjoy suuuuuucks. It should absolutely not be that hard to get info about your body. That's why I love the IVP; we have both found out more about our bodies from these blogs than from medical professionals (well, until we found our beloved midwives).

As for "historical knowledge of your ovaries"....good Lord. I teach history. Will your ovaries soon be added to my state standards? What a moron.

calliope said...

sheesh. Dr. Killjoy can eat it.
sending you lots and lots of love.
you ARE tough- but you don't have to be for us.
xo

oneofhismoms said...

Gaw! He sucks. His bedside manner got up on the wrong side of the bed. AND that very killjoy made me go on birth control for having only ONE cyst. And he had no prior knowledge of my ovaries. I blame all of the rage and lunacy I experienced those two weeks on him. There.

I think the boys retire because they are so young. Little tiny sperm-makers. I bet a lot of them retire because they get girlfriends who force them to do so.

You, on the other hand, must not retire. Tina's got nothing on you.

D&E said...

Stumbled upon your blog tonight. First of all - I love the names you've given to your docs. I have similar. As far as I'm concerned -these Fertility Docs are all creeps. There should be therapy sessions just to deal with the crap these docs dish us.

Good luck with your continued attempts. It will happen!

EggDropBlogger said...

Thanks for the love, gals!