I am feeling very emotional right now.
I think it must be the fact that last week I started another second injectable cycle almost immediately after finding out that the last one did not work.
When I saw Dr. Killjoy last Wednesday, he told me that I had three cysts on my ovaries but that they were not enough to stop the cycle. He told me to start the Menopur that night. WTF?
When I tired to get more information from him, like what caused them and how long have I had them, he said--while holding my medical chart in his hand-- “ask Dr. Feelgood the next time you see him, I don’t have any historical knowledge of your ovaries.” And left the room.
Needless to say, I was pissed. I don’t understand why it’s so difficult to get information about my body.
Thankfully, I did see Dr. Feelgood yesterday morning and he told me that the cysts had already disappeared. It turns out that I only have 2 eggs this cycle, so he increased the dosage. I can’t believe that last time around I had 6 eggs and this time I my only have 2 so far.
And the other drama this week surrounds my donor. Apparently, the last (perfect!) donor we chose has retired. As I mentioned before, all of my donors have retired. I don't know if this is a good or bad sign. So we reconsidered our options and went with an open donor. We are both happy with that decision.
I am feeling very anxious about what the next steps will be if this doesn’t work.
But I am trying to remember that I am still tougher than Tina.