Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Tina's Poodle Skirt


This image greeted me when I got home last night. Nadia bought me this card to remind me that I was tougher than Tina. I don't think I am.

Yesterday was a very rough day for me. I spent the whole day in meetings trying to hold back tears. Even though I appreciated the distraction it was hard to keep my composure when my body was aching with that kicked in the gut feeling. Given the circumstances, I am amazed that I held it together as well as I did.

I feel as if I am leading a double life because the folks at work don't know what I am going through. There are times when my TTC secret it a lot to conceal. Yesterday was definately one of those days.

Anyway, I am going to try to remember Tina's poodle skirt tomorrow when I have to get into the stirrups--again!

And I am going to ask Dr. Killjoy to refer to me simply as Bulldog.


7 comments:

steinbockfrau said...

thinking of you & sending lots of love.
xoxo

vee said...

I know that feeling.
Hang in there.

sara said...

That sounds like a great card. I'm sorry that last cycle didn't work out-- I'm sending lots of good vibes your way.

Anonymous said...

i'm sending you good vibes, my sister. thank you for sharing your journey. i am on my first round of injectables (menopur), and in fact, will be trying to conceive for the first time ever this month. i'm 38, latina, and partnered with an african-american woman, so we have some things in common, you and i. take good care.

mrsbluemont said...

I'm so so sorry dear. You are incredibly tough. Boo for meetings. I'm hoping this next cycle brings more hope and much happiness for you. ox

Lo said...

that's a great card. nadia rocks.

Anonymous said...

Big Hug. Hang in there.