Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Trick? or Treat?

The trick for me this Halloween is to keep my focus. Thanks to Cali, this morning I decided to participate in NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), which means I will post on my blog every day for the month of November.

This is not an easy task. I know this will challenge me because I have tried to do this before. I just often seem to run out of steam, become insecure--thinking that no one will find me interesting. More often than not, I just run of time. At any rate, I am going to try this time to be a woman of my word at least for a month. That's not so hard, right?

And here's my Treat...
So I incorporated many of your suggestions into my thinking this Halloween and I decided to be an Egg Head. For those of you who know me, it's not very original, I know.


Tuesday, October 30, 2007

What Should I Be for Halloween?

I am trying to decide what to be for Halloween. Right now it is a toss up between, Whiner, Drama Queen and Scaredy Cat.

I may be a whiner, but all I can say about my week after fibroid surgery is that, “it hurts”! After a weekend with intense bouts of pain, I had a drive-by visit with my doctor yesterday. Thiry seconds into the visit, he told me I was absolutely fine. He said that I needed to realize that I had experienced a trauma to the body and that I needed time to heal. The pain, he said, was natural.


Am I just a natural Drama Queen? Is Nadia, right? Am I just high maintenance? Have I decided on a costume?

The main thing that I am feeling, though, is fear. What if this does not work? I had the fibroids removed was so that I could get pregnant. I did not have painful periods, anemia, discomfort, or any of the symptoms that motivate people to get those buggers cut out of their bodies. So, my big fear right now is that I endure all of this pain and suffering only to discover that I still can't conceive.

Horror of Horrors!

My impromptu visit with my RE was so rushed that I did not have time to share my fears with him. For now, I have my fingers crossed. I hope that he will have more time to answer my questions and allay my fears in two weeks during our next visit.

Until then, Happy Halloween!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

My Peeps!

Thanks to all who prayed for me, sent well wishes or flowers, called Nadia or held my hand.

Thanks to all of you who continue to visit and post here even though I am a neglectful blogger.

It feels good to be home.

Doped Up!

My thoughts at 3am this morning….Owwie! Ouch! Ooo! Aaah! F#ck!

In case you were wondering, having fibroids removed via abdominal incision hurts like hell.

Thank God for prescription drugs!

And thank God for my peeps!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I'm Alive!

That was my first thought when I opened my eyes in the recovery room. I feel so happy and blessed to be alive. I am safe at home and eager to catch up on the repro blogosphere and share some of my war aka hospital stories.

More to come...

Friday, October 12, 2007

Not a Day Goes By

Not a day goes by that I don't think about my blog or getting pregnant, but my surgery is next week so I am keeping myself busy. I don't even have the time to concentrate long enough to write a coherent entry.

Everyone keeps asking me how I feel about the upcoming surgery and I have to admit to them that I haven't even thought about it.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Chinese Herbs aka The Four Gentlemen

I went to see my acupuncturist yesterday to talk to him about the taste of dirt. I told him that I did not like the herbs and asked him to remind me why I agreed to take them. He said that they would lift up my Qi (an important energy source that runs through the body), make me stronger, and help my reproductive system.

He said that the herbs he prescribed where a 'classic formula' and that they contained a mix between 'the four gentlemen' and 'four things soup'.

I will let you know if I notice any improvement in my chi, or if the herbs start to taste any better.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

A Lot to Swallow

Okay, so my Chinese herbs finally arrived from the factory (?) yesterday. Yes, the factory!

My acupuncturist says that I need to take 1 gram twice day in a glass of water (actually it's three times a day, but I refuse). Yuck! It tastes like dirt. I don't know if I am going to maintain this regimen but I will try anything at least once.

He says that this will help me with my fertility. I have at least three more months until I can get back on the fertility hamster wheel.

Okay, so let's see two grams per day x 90 days (at least) = a lot of digested dirt.