I am trying to decide what to be for Halloween. Right now it is a toss up between, Whiner, Drama Queen and Scaredy Cat.
I may be a whiner, but all I can say about my week after fibroid surgery is that, “it hurts”! After a weekend with intense bouts of pain, I had a drive-by visit with my doctor yesterday. Thiry seconds into the visit, he told me I was absolutely fine. He said that I needed to realize that I had experienced a trauma to the body and that I needed time to heal. The pain, he said, was natural.
Am I just a natural Drama Queen? Is Nadia, right? Am I just high maintenance? Have I decided on a costume?
The main thing that I am feeling, though, is fear. What if this does not work? I had the fibroids removed was so that I could get pregnant. I did not have painful periods, anemia, discomfort, or any of the symptoms that motivate people to get those buggers cut out of their bodies. So, my big fear right now is that I endure all of this pain and suffering only to discover that I still can't conceive.
Horror of Horrors!
My impromptu visit with my RE was so rushed that I did not have time to share my fears with him. For now, I have my fingers crossed. I hope that he will have more time to answer my questions and allay my fears in two weeks during our next visit.
Until then, Happy Halloween!