Sunday, July 22, 2007

Freaky Science

My wife, Egg Drop Blogger, suggested I drop in to share what I am feeling. I have never blogged before but here it is........

I am happy but I am worried....though I must admit I am generally a worrier.

I worry about the freaky science. What effect do the drugs have on the baby? What effect would IVF have on the baby? What effect will this process have on Egg Drop Blogger? What if we have twins? Or tripplets?

I worry about being a parent. Will I be any good at it? What if I don't love my child? What if my child doesn't love me?

I worry about the ethics of it. What about all the children already on this earth who have no one? Is it "wrong" to go through such expense and trouble to have our own?

I worry about my relationship with Egg Drop Blogger. What if we fight all the time about how to raise the baby? What if we can't agree? EDB and I have a very different perspective on the world. She is definately American, she has that can-do spirit of man will conquer nature. I look at the world quite differently. Where I am from in South America life is cheap. You make the best with what you have and accept what life deals you. I feel like a hypocrite working so hard to have my own baby when I think of all the children begging on the streets in my country. Why can't I help them?

I guess I love EDB because of her positive spirit. I am definately the pessimistic and morose one. I am committed to taking it one day at a time. When I let myself fantasize about the baby though, I feel that it is all going to be alright. I'd love to have a little EDB running around.

How cute would that be!?!


oneofhismoms said...

Good to hear from you. My dad always says "Worrying is paying a debt you might not owe." I like that and try to remember it when I worry. Then again, my dad is not a TTC lesbian. I'm not saying don't worry. But do keep writing about it. It has helped me a lot.

oneofhismoms said...

I just tagged both of you for a meme.
xoxo, oneofhismoms