Okay, so the anxiety and nerves are setting in. They are slowly creeping into my everyday thinking. When I started the injectibles, I was pretty calm cool and collected about everything, some might even say, nonchalant.
The first injectible cycle, I was really diligent about the timing and really anal about mixing the vials. Now I can talk on the phone, fry bacon, and mix menopur all at the same time. I haven't even experienced many, if any side effects since Nadia started shooting me up last week.
But now that it looks like I will have IUIs on Wednesday and Thursday of next week, I find myself thinking about the what ifs:
What if we have another tornado and I can't hitch a ride to the drs?
What if the sperm count is really low and we can't use it?
What if the timing is completely off and the sperm misses all of my eggs completely? Frozen sperm isn't as potent as live sperm, you know.
From the looks of things, it seems as if I will have at least five eggs to gamble on, if not more. So the odds are decent but I am still slowly turning into a bag of nerves.
I go back on Monday to get wanded and firm up the dates of my insemination.
Happy New Year?