Wednesday, September 26, 2007

A Wrinkle in Time

So I am traveling for work and I am registered to attend a huge conference and, frankly, I don’t want to do anything. I just want to park myself in my room and look at my navel.

Emotionally, I feel as if I am in some kind of holding pattern. I feel as if all I do is wait. I am waiting for surgery, waiting for recovery, waiting to begin the TTC and then, the ultimate wait, some might say, is the TWW. Basically, I miss being on the hamster wheel.

I know that the surgery may increase my chances to conceive but it is hard to keep sight of that sometimes.

On the other hand, I know that this is just a moment in time and that this too shall pass.

6 comments:

blkgrlphd said...

Some things are worth the wait. So hang in there. Just think when you have a kid, you wish for a quiet period. Savor the wait and try to enjoy yourself along the way.

calliope said...

waiting SUCKS.
And being sidelined for a procedure sucks even more.
Hopefully this will decrease the waiting for you in the long run.
xo

Lo said...

Your hamster wheel metaphor always makes me smile because I have two hamsters in my classroom. And you know what? Neither of them uses the hamster wheel. They lie around sleeping. One of them likes to swing from the bars of the cage like Spiderman.

So...I guess there are a lot of ways to be a hamster. To extend the metaphor.

Co said...

Waiting sucks. And TTC breaks suck when they're not chosen... when they're forced by something like surgery. Hang in there. You'll be back on the hamster wheel eventually.

Anonymous said...

I am just catching up on your saga...is this the trip to Europe, right before your surgery? hope not!!

Sista

EggDropBlogger said...

No, Sista, thank the Lord that that was not my trip to Europe days before my surgery. I was referring to another biz trip (sigh). I travel a lot for work.

I still have a couple of weeks before I go under the knife.