Tougher Than Tina Cycle Goes Bust!

So my third injectible cycle didn't work. I am very upset. I am going to skip this cycle and try to get myself together. At the end of the month I will meet with my doctor to discuss my options.

Tonight's Fortune Cookie

"You will be pleasantly surprised soon."

I have been trying not to get my hope's up because the let down is so brutal. I mean when AF comes not only do I have to deal with the disappointment but I also have to get myself back into the stirrups and start the whole egg drop drama from scratch.

But when I opened the fortune cookie tonight I was pleasantly surprised and it really made me feel a glimmer of hope.

I don't actually feel pregnant but I know that that feeling is neither scientific nor definitive.

We'll see.

Photo Friday: Black and White

Here is a candid of one our cats, Remy. She has a purr like a diesel engine. In this photo, she is trying to comfort me as I talked her ear off last night about how I 'just know' I'm not pregnant.

Nadia was working late and I was lying in bed, when Remy decided to join me. She asked me to tell her my deep dark secrets with her eyes, so I poured my heart out.

She learned about my fear of never getting pregnant and of my fatigue and frustration with the TTC.

I have to admit that she is not 'my favorite' cat. She has too much energy and a mischievous air, which can be tedious when she has hidden a piece of my jewelry, or when she wants to play with my feet in the middle of the night.

But I have to admit that she was very sweet to me last night and quite a comfort in my time of need. I will always love her dearly for that.

My Favorite Pastime During the TWW

This is what i want to do all day and when I am not doing it, I am thinking about doing it. What does it all mean? During the TWW, I overanalyze everything and I'm tired of it. I can't turn my brain off. What a yawn!

This is my sixth TWW and I know that for a lot of you, I sound like a spoiled whiner, but it's just brual.

I am tired all of the time. I get home from work and I can't wait to get into my pjs and go to bed. When I am at work, all I think about is sleeping and how long I have to wait until I can sleep again.

I have no idea what it means, but I have been having some interesting dreams.

Olympic Swimmers

I just got off my phone with my dear friend, Dr. Prescience, who told me she dreamt that my boys were olympic swimmers.

Today was the first of two IUIs. The count was 12 million! I hope one of them is a gold medalist!

Tomorrow it's back in the strirups with Dr. Killjoy...

Third Time is the Charm

Tomorrow I go in for the first of two IUIs. Apparently, I have 3 eggs in play. Who knows? Maybe one will stick this time.

Besides, I have always loved the number 3. I look back on my third year in life with fondess, though I must admit I don't know why.

I just remember lots of pink.